will I have to change
my mind
before I turn into
a brand
new person?
Is it sudden
and discrete—
like the lucky
millionth customer?
Or
must a process
this mysterious
happen imperceptibly—
gradually,
over the course
of each
tortured decision,
compromise,
agreement, result,
and resolution?
Perhaps
the transformation
has already begun?—
But it's probably
for the best
that I don't know,
since
if I did, I am sure
I would try
to resist.
