Every morning, I hear that
damn siren singing—with its inane
refrain repeating the lyric
about existence
being a guarantee—of nothing
more or less than itself;
with its singsong-y melody rising
only to fall a little more tragically
due to the specific gravity
that comes from measuring
the density of a pound of love
suspended in a pound of duty;
its thick counterpoint of doubt
and certainty weaving the texture
of a certain wine dark area rug,
the one I've been drifting on—
the one I soon begin to see dimly
as the one I must
eventually abandon ship
and whip the soles
of my cold and disbelieving feet at
to discover once and for all
whether they'll stick there
or fall right through
and sink at last
into that ocean—of unabridged
sleep beneath.
Friday, November 30, 2018
Thursday, November 29, 2018
BEGINNING TO LOOK A LOT LIKE CHRISTMAS
I wonder—after we're pierced all over
with with the stupefying fingers
of proximate winter,
sterling bells ringing sharp as needles,
snow and ice fierce and extravagantly
silent as diamond
necklaces draping the blue neck napes
of the noblest pagan goddesses—
what on earth is there left
to feel?
Famous-sounding words like these
were never iterated
concerning noisy inchling birds in spring
or the stubbly bushes clinging
to the lurid face of autumn
and those stagnant summer
gutter puddles, all steeped burnt umber
with fermented dogwood leaves
would certainly make pretty unappealing
greeting card illustrations.
with with the stupefying fingers
of proximate winter,
sterling bells ringing sharp as needles,
snow and ice fierce and extravagantly
silent as diamond
necklaces draping the blue neck napes
of the noblest pagan goddesses—
what on earth is there left
to feel?
Famous-sounding words like these
were never iterated
concerning noisy inchling birds in spring
or the stubbly bushes clinging
to the lurid face of autumn
and those stagnant summer
gutter puddles, all steeped burnt umber
with fermented dogwood leaves
would certainly make pretty unappealing
greeting card illustrations.
Wednesday, November 28, 2018
JEERS
Cheers—
to that most
magnificent glacier,
somehow
equally
aimless and dignified—
the imperceptible
pace at which our
styles changed,
so we could
always
wear the same size.
to that most
magnificent glacier,
somehow
equally
aimless and dignified—
the imperceptible
pace at which our
styles changed,
so we could
always
wear the same size.
Tuesday, November 27, 2018
GRAND SCHEME
Outside the range
of salvation
army bells' stilted ringing,
the lows
approaching
record-setting—after dark,
you
and me
slowly stripping
in front of
our deadpan beds, feeling
pretty average.
of salvation
army bells' stilted ringing,
the lows
approaching
record-setting—after dark,
you
and me
slowly stripping
in front of
our deadpan beds, feeling
pretty average.
Monday, November 26, 2018
FLOOR PLAN
Listen: somewhere off the hall,
a cramped bathroom
faucet seems to be mumbling,
an angel-
white radiator is crawling
in a heap in the corner, weeping softly,
a brusque fridge compressor
is taking a grand pause—before
launching into the adjacent movement;
true, maybe that's not
the movement you signed up for.
But that's the one you
could afford. That's the sound
of everyone around you
making of their inner lives, a song.
And look: you too
are doing it.
In your case, of course
it's just a tiny little song,
most well suited
to a tiny little room—
but at least
it's got lots of wonderful pictures
of wide-open spaces
someone in your
family must have visited once
on its tiny little walls.
Friday, November 23, 2018
UNTESTED
Maybe I'm the secret
omnipotent king
of all the sunlight
resounds into
sight with its
triumphal song;
so benevolent!
and secure
and carefree—I've never once thought
to try
forbidding it to
do anything.
omnipotent king
of all the sunlight
resounds into
sight with its
triumphal song;
so benevolent!
and secure
and carefree—I've never once thought
to try
forbidding it to
do anything.
Wednesday, November 21, 2018
LUX AETERNA
That precious
brittleness
of a little
white gash—can never
hope to appease
the vast
pestilence of black;
that's why—it's
unceasingly
unceasingly
encouraging
to the observer—how
redundant the stars are.
Tuesday, November 20, 2018
PROTEST POEM FOR GENERAL PURPOSES
This poem
is like the air:
it's just
what was there—
when the first word
drew its next breath
and exhaled
the subsequent one
in consequence—and so
on, inexorably
for a
finite lifetime—unexceptional,
incorruptible—
and fair.
is like the air:
it's just
what was there—
when the first word
drew its next breath
and exhaled
the subsequent one
in consequence—and so
on, inexorably
for a
finite lifetime—unexceptional,
incorruptible—
and fair.
Monday, November 19, 2018
A STICKY NOTE
to write a fresh simple poem
using the leftover ring
of the coffee mug
on this
nicked up but otherwise stark wooden table
as its edgeless center
I jotted this morning
after the second cup
with hasty
notes toward indelibility
of seeming infinity plus
its remainder
a good reminder
of pure luck and a good
frame to focus
on how loss works.
Some telescopically deep
task for an image—now
how in the whole of hell
is this rumpled old secretary:
my afternoon self
supposed to go
about tidying up after
a boss like that?
using the leftover ring
of the coffee mug
on this
nicked up but otherwise stark wooden table
as its edgeless center
I jotted this morning
after the second cup
with hasty
notes toward indelibility
of seeming infinity plus
its remainder
a good reminder
of pure luck and a good
frame to focus
on how loss works.
Some telescopically deep
task for an image—now
how in the whole of hell
is this rumpled old secretary:
my afternoon self
supposed to go
about tidying up after
a boss like that?
Friday, November 16, 2018
NEXT LEVEL
Lost forever—in the dark
water temple, guzzling midsummer
droughts by the dram
and cordless phone riffing
the most spectacularly
ineffectual songs
while clad in those magically
discolored vestments—bet you
never thought
for a second: this kind
of a puzzle
may never come again.
water temple, guzzling midsummer
droughts by the dram
and cordless phone riffing
the most spectacularly
ineffectual songs
while clad in those magically
discolored vestments—bet you
never thought
for a second: this kind
of a puzzle
may never come again.
Thursday, November 15, 2018
PERSONAL TRUTH
There's a silver heaven out there
just for you;
that's the one
you're going to.
No one else
is in there—swearing
and taking up two seats
on the bus and
fucking with your stuff;
it's just
for you. Pinky-
promise you: no one,
no more
worries, ‘cause
nobody else. Absolutely
no one—whosoever.
just for you;
that's the one
you're going to.
No one else
is in there—swearing
and taking up two seats
on the bus and
fucking with your stuff;
it's just
for you. Pinky-
promise you: no one,
no more
worries, ‘cause
nobody else. Absolutely
no one—whosoever.
Wednesday, November 14, 2018
PROCESS OF ELIMINATION
Rest assured, somewhere in the middle
of your poem—the search for perfection
will consume itself completely
and leave whatever burnt up
lump of your-
self that's left inside
feeling perfect-
ly insatiable
at the same time. Even though
this radical new rhythm,
which you can neither imagine
nor define, keeps ringing true;
either the impossibility of the sound
stops you dead—or else
the realness of it
keeps leading you on. As it must.
Until, finally you approach
the end of the last line,
still lacking in the love
you were desperate to find,
though all curiosity
has been extinguished
and each open end
has been punctuated.
But the lingering question
what was it all for?—blazes forth
brighter than it ever has before,
since now, it can only be answered:
whatever is left
that it isn't.
of your poem—the search for perfection
will consume itself completely
and leave whatever burnt up
lump of your-
self that's left inside
feeling perfect-
ly insatiable
at the same time. Even though
this radical new rhythm,
which you can neither imagine
nor define, keeps ringing true;
either the impossibility of the sound
stops you dead—or else
the realness of it
keeps leading you on. As it must.
Until, finally you approach
the end of the last line,
still lacking in the love
you were desperate to find,
though all curiosity
has been extinguished
and each open end
has been punctuated.
But the lingering question
what was it all for?—blazes forth
brighter than it ever has before,
since now, it can only be answered:
whatever is left
that it isn't.
Tuesday, November 13, 2018
FAIT ACCOMPLI
Lately, the increasing-
ly lowering ceiling
of clouds
has pressured me
into something like
a lotus position,
having bequeathed its
most immoderate gift: time
to consider
how best to construct
one's life, beside
the sturdiest dam
of grief
one can find—without so much
as a thread
of hope
for recompense.
So I figure,
as long as I'm living
out of my mind—that means I
can't die. However,
to be still, to lie
supine—even with
all the bombs going
off all around—that's
not exactly
an unshakable feeling;
that's more like
me—unmistakably
moldering away.
ly lowering ceiling
of clouds
has pressured me
into something like
a lotus position,
having bequeathed its
most immoderate gift: time
to consider
how best to construct
one's life, beside
the sturdiest dam
of grief
one can find—without so much
as a thread
of hope
for recompense.
So I figure,
as long as I'm living
out of my mind—that means I
can't die. However,
to be still, to lie
supine—even with
all the bombs going
off all around—that's
not exactly
an unshakable feeling;
that's more like
me—unmistakably
moldering away.
Monday, November 12, 2018
THE SIMPLEST THING IN THE WORLD
The simplest thing in the world,
is not the most straightforward
thing in the world—
flip your trusty
ball cap upside-down
and catch a little sunlight,
instead of blocking it out;
notice the profligate
shuffling of your feet
against
the unstoppable stillness
of the ground;
look up
and out beyond churches
whose pointed rooftops reach,
but don't ever touch
the obdurate clouds—
and try to feel
certain (without yet knowing how
to parse it in a sentence)
that help is not on the way—
help is all around.
is not the most straightforward
thing in the world—
flip your trusty
ball cap upside-down
and catch a little sunlight,
instead of blocking it out;
notice the profligate
shuffling of your feet
against
the unstoppable stillness
of the ground;
look up
and out beyond churches
whose pointed rooftops reach,
but don't ever touch
the obdurate clouds—
and try to feel
certain (without yet knowing how
to parse it in a sentence)
that help is not on the way—
help is all around.
Friday, November 9, 2018
DON'T LISTEN TO THE WIND
Of course—
your soul
is a brimming bowl
of pure fruit juice;
just remember—a lemon
is a fruit too,
and so
is every
single
little green bean—
and so's a goddamn tomato.
your soul
is a brimming bowl
of pure fruit juice;
just remember—a lemon
is a fruit too,
and so
is every
single
little green bean—
and so's a goddamn tomato.
Thursday, November 8, 2018
Wednesday, November 7, 2018
UNPROTECTED
Instead of a poem, maybe today
I do a nice sort of swerve
so as not to hit this
impetuous kid—
gray eyes on the
gray street
and pink cheeks
to illuminate
a painted-on doll's frown—
which begs, I think
to brag
of the secret
splinters buried in their palms—
an obscure result
of too much casual
raising high the roof beams.
Tuesday, November 6, 2018
EXPERIENCE IS UNAVOIDABLE
To think—this whole mess, it
might have happened just like
Virginia Woolf said: time passes.
Many many suns
traveling their predictable matter-
of fact paths—though each one
is its own immeasurable dream
blinding bright as
untarnishing silver—
eventually blur, run
together, are forgotten.
It's a mercy
we are no longer
astounded by Copernican theory,
even a little disappointed
to finally behold
the Rhodes Colossus—and the
many alternate possibilities
which must invisibly ride along-
side every sunrise,
are necessarily discarded
if we're to ever to get
the day started—except (perhaps)
for the one exquisite fantasy
in which—neither we
nor the sun
ever bothered.
Monday, November 5, 2018
WANTS NOT MET, NEEDS NOT NEGLECTED
Soon
we'll be dead—we aren't
right now;
we are
solitary—we're all
connected;
the irregular sounds—
of rain
on my
windowpane—exhilarating!
we'll be dead—we aren't
right now;
we are
solitary—we're all
connected;
the irregular sounds—
of rain
on my
windowpane—exhilarating!
Saturday, November 3, 2018
ITCH
Something keeps tickling me.
Something unhelpful, vestigial, no
longer living,
but nevertheless
beguiling, being so perfectly
preserved in time's mellow amber:
this frail ancient
wisp of me that never
stopped loving her. But it's
not so much the artifact
and how its becalming beauty is all
bound-up in its hopelessness
as the accompanying
sense in which—all life on earth, right
up to this moment,
might have unfolded
purely as a reaction—to the littlest
inopportune encounter.
Something unhelpful, vestigial, no
longer living,
but nevertheless
beguiling, being so perfectly
preserved in time's mellow amber:
this frail ancient
wisp of me that never
stopped loving her. But it's
not so much the artifact
and how its becalming beauty is all
bound-up in its hopelessness
as the accompanying
sense in which—all life on earth, right
up to this moment,
might have unfolded
purely as a reaction—to the littlest
inopportune encounter.
Friday, November 2, 2018
OVERTURES
Dark dead of morning,
and already—before the bus brakes
squealing F#
and the trains peeling-
off in high C—there's the distant
rhythms of many
hungry engines, the heavy rattle
of a battery
of big trucks coming,
the uniform clandestine
clomp of filthy
work boots hustling—to get
the dissonant
language of the
streets all picked-up
quickly—before the heart-
beat in the
womb is detected,
before the ghoulish
neighborhood priest
and the squeaky-
clean politician
can hear it
and get started.
and already—before the bus brakes
squealing F#
and the trains peeling-
off in high C—there's the distant
rhythms of many
hungry engines, the heavy rattle
of a battery
of big trucks coming,
the uniform clandestine
clomp of filthy
work boots hustling—to get
the dissonant
language of the
streets all picked-up
quickly—before the heart-
beat in the
womb is detected,
before the ghoulish
neighborhood priest
and the squeaky-
clean politician
can hear it
and get started.
Thursday, November 1, 2018
INTEREST COMPOUNDED DAILY
Wearied as young
debutantes
leaving the grand ball,
all the trees—from
the smallest red dogwood,
to the shapeliest
catalpa—heave sighs
and shed their extravagantly
crumpled vintage coats,
draping the fall sidewalks
in such preposterous
and superabundant fortunes
of pure gold,
of sturdiest
rust and tart persimmon—
that the lowliest woman
and most distracted man
no longer know where
to look, or how
to feel poor—while just
enjoying the simple.
debutantes
leaving the grand ball,
all the trees—from
the smallest red dogwood,
to the shapeliest
catalpa—heave sighs
and shed their extravagantly
crumpled vintage coats,
draping the fall sidewalks
in such preposterous
and superabundant fortunes
of pure gold,
of sturdiest
rust and tart persimmon—
that the lowliest woman
and most distracted man
no longer know where
to look, or how
to feel poor—while just
enjoying the simple.
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