Perhaps
you're an addict;
this is just your fate.
Or perhaps there's no end
to the cast-
off names,
to the lists of the wants
and the fears
you transcend.
Perhaps suffering
is just the daily
allowance you make—
and maybe
the best way
to finally get some rest
is to merge
with the problem—
forget
about your strengths;
become one
with
the exhaustion
which is
keeping you awake.
