it was always only numbers—
little ones first, flailing and falling
in larger and larger numbers,
in larger and larger numbers,
through holes in older fatter uglier
numbers; landing on piles
of broken spines of smaller
fallen leftover numbers. A contradiction
perhaps, but that was just how it was:
it was the rhythms of their falling—
over time coinciding,over time over-
lapping over time cracking open,
hollowing out, creating space
for the declining rhythms of their rising.
That was just how it was;
lapping over time cracking open,
hollowing out, creating space
for the declining rhythms of their rising.
That was just how it was;
and so, now this is just how it is—
an accumulation of vanishing,
a great contraction,
a great contraction,
a thing that shrinks and compacts
as it's stacking; it's all just
so much nothing—but nothing was
as it's stacking; it's all just
so much nothing—but nothing was
ever so satisfying.