explain our relationship.
In your presence, absence
itself turns impossible—
turns over and under
like the infinity symbol—until
God himself
could no longer tell
who is under who's wing,
or if there's any
difference between
remembering and knowing.
But I think I've finally
come to understand
that remembering bears
an inestimable cost:
whatever I think you are—
that's what you're not;
whenever i look,
i can never find you;
whatever I grasp, I pass
through like a ghost.
But the act of my looking
is the way that you tell me
that it’s you
who will teach me
the value of searching—
you
who can never be
lost.
