Friday, April 26, 2024


Let me say: words won't 
explain our relationship. 

In your presence, absence 
itself turns impossible—

turns over and under 
like the infinity symbol—until 

God himself 
could no longer tell 

who is under who's wing,
or if there's any 

difference between 
remembering and knowing.

But I think I've finally 
come to understand 

that remembering bears 
an inestimable cost:

whatever I think you are—
that's what you're not;

whenever i look, 
i can never find you; 

whatever I grasp, I pass 
through like a ghost.

But the act of my looking 
is the way that you tell me 

that it’s you 
who will teach me 

the value of searching—

who can never be