Wednesday, April 25, 2018

HALLOWS

Night rain
hoary moss
and mold grow blueblack

silent—fatally
covering the old;

morning thick
with sun-
blanched mist—the stuff

new souls
are made of.

Tuesday, April 24, 2018

ONCE UPON A DREAM

If I
know you, darling
you're so

ego-
centric, it ought to be

a breeze
not to think—
of all

the fat slimy
stone-
blind and
goal-haunted insects

writhing away—
underneath
your

perfect spring day.

Monday, April 23, 2018

OMEN

Clot-like, the old day's
overripe fire
spreads across
the deep pink water;

faraway, the oozing clouds
look lavender (though this
is quite impossible)—isn't there something?
You're supposed to remember.

Ghostly music
plays off
somewhere—a fantasy theme
blurred at each note's edges

by the increasing-
ly slow movement
of time—isn't there?
Something you're supposed to remember.

A lone seagull, high up crescent
of wheeling silver,
stabs in sharp relief against
the conjured scene

might be willfully mis-
taken to be
a dove—if not
for the distinct lack

of olive leaf—
might even
be taken
to be a raven—if not

for the
mostly just irritating
screeches it delivers:
Isn't there something you're supposed to remember?

Saturday, April 21, 2018

SUPER MARIO

Those borderless flowing Saturday
mornings, slowly drowning
my capacity to imagine

a faraway
world where eggs
and milk are hard to get.

Touch another star, why don't they?
Like he can;
just

shut up
and eat that
fire flower, or whatever.

Again and again, I bust my head
against bricks, see if
I can

snort up the dust, call it
a balanced
breakfast.

Friday, April 20, 2018

KISS YOUR ASS GOODBYE

As usual, there goes your
sallow face

in a dirty
shop window; not just

a reflection—the sum
total

of all the
things you don't know.

You'd think
that understanding

would look a little different
from its

absence—but it
doesn't.

You stop. For a
second, both of you

stop. This is
no stranger—not even

a vague shadow.
This is your twin;

this is your exact double.
Except—that rift

(which you feel beginning
to pulsate now

as a physical thing;
wavering

but thick,
cold and impenetrable,

like the tight knot of muscle
between your stomach

and your lungs) you sense
isn't mutual.

Some gaps
are real; certain lacks

are both
solid and unbridgeable.

You could
bring him water—but you couldn't

make him take it.
You could never

make your
right hand do

the things his
left is doing.

Thursday, April 19, 2018

BESTIARY

Good
morning, good
morning—how are we

doing? This
morning, the part
of god

will be performed
by
that starling—

iridescent, gold-
flecked, 
under the cognac-

yellow spotlight
of sun
that's been tenderly shaving

down last night's
stubble of
show showers—watch him

flutter
down now, to begin
our production

from first-position—on top
of the back-
alley line transformer

to peck a bit
at a glistening
peach pit in the wet gutter.

Wednesday, April 18, 2018

PROBABLY

Even though it 
doesn't exist, there is still
this certain word
whose terrible weight is immeasurable—

it sits there on the page, like the derelict 
tufts of half-fermented leaves 
and stray cigarette 
packs, obscuring every storm drain,

it looks from far away 
like a languid ribbon of rising smoke—pretty
but useless 
in a windless sky, 

it sounds
like the unsought hysteric 
tack of hard rain 
against every midnight-blue windowsill,

not the sound 
of any one specific music—but rather, 
of all music put together's
bleary echo.

Tuesday, April 17, 2018

FURLOUGH POEM

Almost contemptible,
if not so
preposterous—how that

gray squirrel (rival
mammal) wire
tail thrumming,

turning dizzy figure
eight
patterns in the park—routinely makes me

feel so green-
eyed in-
sufficient!

not for
working so much
less hard that he does

for liberties—like
work breaks,
monster lunches;

for not
more often capitalizing
on such

easy and abundant day-to-
day opportunities—to abuse
more legal stimulants.

Monday, April 16, 2018

GNOSIS

The galloping heart

is a crazy horse—it'll

have to be put down.

Friday, April 13, 2018

REUNITED

At last—
it is evening.

And Cause and Effect,
wearied

from the rat-
race

of counteracting all day, can
finally go strolling

together,
hand-in-hand—agreeably talking

shit
about everything.

Even the splashiest
sunsets

don't impress them—like:
why can't

the dumb 
clouds come 

in creamy peach colors 
all the time?

Wednesday, April 11, 2018

SIMPLICITY ITSELF

All night,

real as you like—
the same solid
white chunk of

rock goes on hanging—

suspended
in the infinite sky;
eternally,

invisibly bound—but free

of charge—
and clear
(for now)

of advertisements.

Tuesday, April 10, 2018

RITE OF SPRING

How is it, Chicago—the sheer resonant beauty
sponsored by your early
April afternoons

must always be composed of
so many smaller and
unbeautiful pieces?

Or had we better ask
the trash-mad seagulls?—
boomeranging hard just now

about the bloated clouds,
seemingly hitting
all the wrong keys at once—as if charged

yet again this season
with the inglorious task—of
just making sure

this wheezy old organ
still works.

Monday, April 9, 2018

YIELD

Even the scrawny
disenfranchised 
flocks careening past

all seem to slow-up 
and cease their incessant 
honking for a moment—

acceding to this
puerile April
her quiet, cool quiescence

as a quite 
unhinged and lion-
headed 

March keeps 
raving 
in her girlish face.

Friday, April 6, 2018

PARISH

Sometimes I wish I was
a whole congregation;
then I'd have much
better excuses—like

this pied blue profusion
of fat waxy pigeons, messily
ranging the neighborhood:

one minute riding
high upon the majestic
voice of the April wind,

the next low-bowed, pecking
and scratching at every
crack in the asphalt
for a tidbit of breakfast—

never potent,
not concentrated enough
to wonder

whether anything
at all
is going to turn out fine;

knowing nothing
of god—only of vanishing
opportunity.

Thursday, April 5, 2018

SUSPICIOUS

Around
noon, these stiller

days, I
see you lying

dubious
on the ground—

my nearest
enemy,

my dear
equanimous shadow.

Silent, ponderous, you
invite me:

sit right down, stretch out
the immediate

until it becomes
the indefinite.

Every breath, unspeakably
useless,

all alarms—
pure sound.

All my love—now
sticky,

contracts down
into—pity and attachment.

Every move
I no longer make

is practice;
every itch

I refuse to
scratch is

a preparation—
for death.

Monday, April 2, 2018

FEELINGS

Sometimes, it's like I can
hear myself hearing
myself talking, and

all of a
sudden, I get this weird
hunch—prefab

and
storebought—words
are just shirts

and pants
for my thoughts—which, in
turn, must just

be so many
torsos fingers toes
arms legs crotches and butts—

all bumpy
and wrinkled and ashy
and ugly and what-

not—and not one of them
autonomous; each one
nothing but

a nervous
quivering slave, a soft
fleshy pink

robot—pressed tough
and eternally
into the electrically

controlled
neuro-muscular
service of—guess what?

Thursday, March 29, 2018

MENTAL JOGGING

If the secret
answer to every riddle
is time,

I'd take a pass
on action,
and just as soon sit and wait

around
for the
gift of pure vision—I'd coolly 

bear that slow, inevitable
oxidation of
bones and fickle muscle tissue

while imagination swirls
and rises, flooding past
un-grasped,

while shredded crowds of hours
rush down, dissolve, and leech out
the bottom of the noumenal

world like raindrops
soaking through parched clumps
of graveyard dirt—I'd willingly bear it

for the time to sit
and write a poem, or not to,
but whose

last perfect line
typed
on the page when I do

will typically go—
"as always, I remained pretty
noncommittal."

Wednesday, March 28, 2018

PORTRAIT POSE

More unsure than 
ever in the shifting 
orange-ish evening light—

and framed by drifting 
chalk moon sky and glistening 
gritty parking lot—I totter

and resort, like a 
jerk, to the only 
game I'm sure I can master:

to gaze yet again 
upon her cagily—
as if she were ever

a piece of my 
chintzy property, as if 
she could still yet be

some practicable 
magic eye poster—now 
and then, a person 

emerging; but more often 
popping—pure 
personality. 

Tuesday, March 27, 2018

IDIOT PROOF

I believe
I understand everything

now, in its
raw elemental simplicity.

I've seen
the ocean—it really is

quite wide,
sometimes

churning,
salty, and bluegray;

And I know—
within each

one tiny seed!
is contained

the second apple
tree—

seriously
pretty

redundant,
isn't it?

Monday, March 26, 2018

THE LAST MOMENTS OF SOCRATES

A flat calm—both
floors
and buoys

like a dead
sea—but fuck
such sheer

dullness of uni-
formity—
no catches,

I guess: everyone
must die
his own death

(one
entrance, many
exits) and

anything left
behind—
wasn't yours.

DUH

Money is
no object;

money
is the subject.

Friday, March 23, 2018

INDEMNITY POEM

Leave it
to the white-
haired philosophers out there—

to hold out hope
for some ennobling soul

to come
flittering
along on wings of gold—

and lightly
reimburse the body.

God damn his finicky
black guts—the true poet
must

simply despise his
entire anatomy.

Cramped and manacled
by hunger and
weakness and lust, he must

make his living thus:
he works

with fiendish purpose
to correct one
deformity—such that, dependably, another

one—will
go funny.

Thursday, March 22, 2018

HAIL

Brazen
citizen of the world,
your flag

must be the sun—
everyday

salutation,
hymn-
less allegiance,

guiding
light and purpose—
regardless

of how
proud high

or limp
on its
ever-inconspicuous

pole it
gets hung.

Tuesday, March 20, 2018

OPPRESSION

Somehow, that profound darkness
which crushes in upon our silent
lonely tin can houses

after we turn all
the lightbulbs off—

so heavy and dense
with the done day's
glut of nontransferable memories,

so much more difficult to breathe,
and far more deterring to grope our way
down long halls toward
our toilets in—

looks exactly the same
as that impish, stealthy,
superfluous kind

which first compelled us
to absent-mindedly

give their white
switches a flick
in the first place.

Monday, March 19, 2018

DON'T HOLD YOUR BREATH

Figuring—the truth
must really
be still

and simple—and
the soul
must be nothing

if not a rarer kind
of air—I finally
decided

to stop
fleeing death
completely,

not realizing—life,
seconds after
the aspiration,

would still
feel compelled—to keep
fleeing me.

Friday, March 16, 2018

CHALK

I've existed here
so long,

I feel I'm no longer subordinate
meat

and bone;
I'm a burnt coal

a hunk
of old
recalcitrant fossil—coming off

in my own hands. Coming off
desperate

for the symbols,
frenzied
for the right words

to press and scrawl and
decorate
this primitive space. But

every time
I etch a "yes"—crumbling

a little,
stepping back

to observe, it
always looks a lot

more like—"not yet."

Wednesday, March 14, 2018

DECISION FATIGUE

By now, I should have learned
this: how every sorely
needed spring precipitates

a necessary fall. Exhausted
in thought, piss-poor
in action, the weight of all

time seems to gather
and pool at the center
of each obsidian pupil

and disobedient black
hole ear canal—expressing itself finally
in formless light, colorless sound.

The pathways, overgrown
with it now and dissappearing
as the plot slowly thickens,

curdled with stiffness of
wind, clotted with silence
of still floodwater,

crippled by inertia; surely, the obstacle
becomes the way—but also
vice versa.

Tuesday, March 13, 2018

THE LAST CRUSADE

The old priest never told me—
try to feel this
not as words,

but rocks—
not the bare facts
but the hard ones,

and not the ones
out there anchoring
the land, either

but like that one pithy hard
pit in the dark
fortress of your stomach:

Ambivalence—exists.
Incertitude, perplexity,
insignificance—runneth over.

Bewilderment
covers the earth.
And your resolve

your young
tender confidence
composure, dedication—these things

are like His skin:
when pummeled with stones, each
bruises easily.

Forget about salvation,
what you seek
is protection. What you need

is a barrier.
Body and soul?
No—the true analogy

fits together
much more like: clothing
and body.

Monday, March 12, 2018

EVENSONG

Icicles gleaming
translucent
bluewhite

under
the rooftop
LED lights—

like
martyrs'
holy fingers—

like left-
over
star parts.

Saturday, March 10, 2018

ENJOY YOUR MEMORY

Little
smile—you
flash

for
just an instant—
but I'll

continue—
to regard my
having

seen
you—for a
long while.

Friday, March 9, 2018

HAND IN HAND

I know how the stories go,
mythic recurrences,
biblical endeavors—

me, stoic. resolute
in my impermanence.
I am that city.

You—are that river,
hither and thithering, undecided
forever.

I desire commerce. trade.
I cannot move. Yet I yearn to
bend forward.

you—senselessly, you facilitate. yet,
you seek nothing but return
to the father.

Take any given late-
winter afternoon
on these scrupulous historical records:

the sun and wind playing
on metal, on bricks,
and across the chittering water

both necessarily make their music,
both play a plainchant,
monophonic, but overlapping

both existing, sacred and gently,
in the spaces between letters
in the name of the other

both standing there
on the beguiling fringe wilderness
of one another,

side by side, a pair moving
through history for all time—but never going
together.

Thursday, March 8, 2018

CITY OF NEIGHBORHOODS

Despite near-
constant quibbling
and torpedoing of birds,

amid sirens,
rants of nearby buzzsaws
and rap
of distant hammers,

the fat pink man is asleep on the stoop—

slumped
with old joy,

stinking
a bit,

a warped chest of crumbs,
pulsing

constellation,
divining proof:

simplicity—
subsists.

Adulteration and
virginity
can yet—coexist.

Wednesday, March 7, 2018

WALKING PAST MIKE'S FURNITURE STORE AT NIGHT,

its lavish tall bay windows
swimming
with moonlight,

sends a pale sliver
of relief
to an overcharged heart

just glancing over left
shoulder to notice—row after row
after row after

row—of ingenious affordable
snow-
white home appliances

all in the dark,
and each
one—turned off.

Tuesday, March 6, 2018

EQUANIMITY

Sailing. 
Seasick

heaving
on the slick

deck of some
swollen

little vessel—
groaning nauseous

gripping
the seat. Pathetic, but this

is somehow
vast-

ly preferable
to what's underneath.

Anxious—
doesn't really 

do the feeling
justice. Any minute 

now I 
might be—hurled

blindly 
from the warped ship

into a freezing midnight 
sea.

Monday, March 5, 2018

NOTHING BUT

You—are a perfect
public
restroom;

one by
one people
come to you

they need you more
than they really
choose you

they fill you
up and (if you're
lucky) empty you.

Weird thing mostly
is how—
what's left

in your guts
in your soul
in your middle

still keeps refilling—though
somehow just
a little

emptier
each
time.

Friday, March 2, 2018

EXEGESIS

Full moon,
gleaming milk-
white—

glistening cold
hard-
boiled egg
protein-white!
Must be—

past
your dinner time.

Thursday, March 1, 2018

IMPROMPTU FOR MARCH 1

Swooping down
fast

and
thick as cold fog

on a trash-clogged
mudbrown juniper,

the industrious finches

perch—
a minute

here a minute
there—furiously

rehearsing their choirs

ad hoc
between cloudbursts.

Wednesday, February 28, 2018

BEHOLD

My love for this place
is less like a thing
and more like
a thing's container.
It's colored
a nice benign lavender—

safer than either of its
primary urges
but, proportionally,
shaded much more
to the blue side
than the crimson.

Which is to say,
it's not a space
that burns, or insists,
or requires. It prefers to stay
a little far away;
to keep cool,

to wear its sunglasses,
to just hang-
out—and twinkle.
But not like the moon
or a diamond
would do, either.

It's more plasmic
than that, silently fluid-
but-viscous. This
weird oozing cool
thing that I've somehow
grabbed a hold of for a minute,

this thing has
no edges, not so much
as a corner. It can't
be held or folded or turned
over. And it never will be
finished.

Tuesday, February 27, 2018

FIGHTING WORDS

If only.
something's missing.

If only.
something's wrong.

If only if only'd
if-only those if onlies!—then,

in order
to be astonished

you'd just have to be
available.

Monday, February 26, 2018

PLENITUDES

Blue or gray—each day, rise
and stretch
and meander

after coffee and
milk come together.
Do no do

what's new. Be
boring. Say
nothing

to onlookers
about this thing you've
been busy building.

Cherish the memorized lines
and the creases;
flirt with every

curve
in these naive
bodily props of inspiration,

your divine-
ly oracular theory
of sets—there is

just so much there, and
believe it:
you've got nothing

but time.
Remember, you are not here
to abuse the numbers,

yet, discord—is the spark
from which
the pure bonfires

of new thought start,
by which
the smooth and the

cornerless light
of awareness increases.
You must only continue

to rise
and stretch
and meander,

no matter
where you're going;
you can advance

just by counting—forge ahead,
simply
by walking there.

Friday, February 23, 2018

IDEA MAN

What if
this whole body of
mine is

just the hands—which are cupped
for dear life
around some matchstick;

protectors of some flagrant—yet
winnowing technology,
humble means

to the end
of that old outrage—thought,
irresistible, beguiling, the source impossible to detect.

Glamorous, that impossible glimmer,
but so-what. It's not
heroic. It's never enough

to create something
from nothing; the real magic
trick—is finding

some tolerably hideous way
of keeping the thing
going.

Thursday, February 22, 2018

HOUR GLASS

Figure it—all thought
and everyone,
adrift and slipping

inside this sloped
and beguiling container;
a thing,
an object in the actual world

which holds
and measures out an abstraction—
a sense
quite apart from it.

Picture it—apprehension
with a certain pace
and a definite
direction.

Patience (quintessence
of dust, province of actors)
grows headless;

it has no face,
is becoming the slightest,
the emptiest,
the least recognizable faculty
on earth.

A patient, meanwhile—
is still one
who suffers.

Wednesday, February 21, 2018

WILL

I.

There's just
no living

in this
present tense. I am

of the earth,
and of the earth with the breath

of its silty
wind, I'll sing,

each passing second proving—
reality was

but an art-
ful delusion.


II.

Timelessness.
Dreamless
sleep. Non-
arrival. Boredom.

—these lapses

you cannot have;
I'm taking them
with me.


III.

Bury me—
in any body

of water

which hasn't
already—

got a name.

Tuesday, February 20, 2018

GEOLOGIC

As time turns
uncountable, plates
pull apart. We
are now living

on opposite shores.
I no longer
see you,

but I still see
your light, still make
out its red-
shifting; so I

know, when it's
dark—you're right
there.

Monday, February 19, 2018

MISSING WORDS FROM "STORMY WEATHER"

When
all you can think is

even the rain
is trying to rain—

stormy weather.

When
dead relatives of yours
keep popping up on Facebook,

portend the disconcerting sense
that, somewhere
far off

against your
will, you're
being prayed for—

stormy weather.

Black and white, moving
picture: someone

whom you never loved,
were never born to—

in the future—
they're a spinster.

Emotional fermata, E minor trill—
keeps raining all the time.

All the time.

Swell.

Forever.

Friday, February 16, 2018

ECCLESIASTIC

Look—even
the hale sacred
sun goes a little

pale sometimes—
appears to tumble

backwards—
drowses late
and far away

in silver
blankets of clouds.

Even if it's working—
somehow
don't waste

your whole life—
working.

Thursday, February 15, 2018

MORAL WITHOUT FABLE

True Love doesn't try
to do too much.
True love knows life's too short for that;
it's never trying be clever.

True Love never says never.
It has no problem rhyming
"ever" with "ever." Over and
over—it does that sort of thing all the time.

And True Love isn't just patient and kind;
True Love is a goddamn sucker
and an enabler; it'll wait in parking lots
and dark kitchens forever.

Even if it saw something,
True Love would never say anything.
It knows better. True Love is
too cool—it's all-like: "whatever."

Wednesday, February 14, 2018

FEBRUARY 14

Afternoon
sky everyplace now—pink smoke,

not black;

me
asleep anyhow—things

looking up.

TO DO LIST

1. Try to get sick
of gazing

at the indiscriminate sun-
light—draping

sharp cornered walls of pink morning
brick.

Tuesday, February 13, 2018

YOU'RE WELCOME

What if?—beauty,
truth, for
example—were no
crown and scepter,

did not appear marvelous
as crystal bracelets
or clank and rattle
like necklaces either,

weren't even the precious
jewels set in-
side them—but rather
are themselves only

facets—two levels, different angled
planes—in the face of
one worshipful 
but hideous old stone

known as Good—
which sits
like the squat, sharp
skull of a little kid

on a simple wood stand
in a small empty
room, on a thin
blood-red carpet;

and after you
enter and praise it,
and you've knelt
low and kissed it—you're welcome

to ask it—one pure-
ly
hypothetical
question.

Monday, February 12, 2018

LON LON MILK

Empty vessel, proud
rare container, glistening capturer

of all that which
countably itches and wriggles

and of many mercurial
mass nouns, which can't—

inviting us tongueless
to fill it with our coldest

whitest thoughts—daring us
to cover

and squirrel away
pure universal

energy somewhere
personal, somehow

for later,
capped tight, and quiet

in curved glass—blessed
and sacred are you

for holding back, for giving us
just a little space,

for entreating, with neither
any menace

nor urgency, to act—but not necessarily
until we grow tired

and sick
of our main quests—or really

ever, unless
we feel like it.

Friday, February 9, 2018

HISTORY OF POETRY

This is just how it was: numbers—
it was always only numbers—

little ones first, flailing and falling
in larger and larger numbers, 

through holes in older fatter uglier
numbers; landing on piles 

of broken spines of smaller 
fallen leftover numbers. A contradiction

perhaps, but that was just how it was:
it was the rhythms of their falling—

over time coinciding,over time over-
 lapping over time cracking open,

hollowing out, creating space
for the declining rhythms of their rising.

That was just how it was;
and so, now this is just how it is—

an accumulation of vanishing,
a great contraction,

a thing that shrinks and compacts
as it's stacking; it's all just

so much nothing—but nothing was
ever so satisfying. 

Thursday, February 8, 2018

INTERLUDE

Consider.—
My mind is a tree.
It will live longer than me.

My heart is an ordinary
but particular bird,
searching
the four directions.

How could a thing be concerned?
in the face of such

transience: the sure
oak—the quick cardinal,
paused in its

snowy morning limbs.

Wednesday, February 7, 2018

BELIEF IN BELIEF (IS STILL A BELIEF)

Some days,
I believe
in love

and in the truth
so much—that I can't resist

turning them into these
cheap little gift
shop knickknacks

and taking them with me
everywhere I go—

I carry them both
around in my pocket,
the words feel smooth

like tumbler-polished pastel
talisman rocks.

When I'm feeling fidgety, I
can reach in to fondle,
click and rub them together,

shuffle and rearrange their orientations
to each other in the dark

and it relaxes me;
while I'm pumping gas, waiting
in line at the bank,

debating calling, dialing, pacing—
hoping you don't pick up.

Other days, though, it's heavier. Love
feels like
just another goal,

and the truth gets so thick-
ly narcissistic, that I think

it's likely that all of my depth
has just fallen out of my pocket
though the holes made by hope,

and if I'm not careful, all my
sincerity'll go next.

Tuesday, February 6, 2018

WATCH THIS

Like the rainbow
down a

fish's tail, the broken light
keeps playing

on the surface
of the lake—

the lake
which keeps playing

on late-night TV—and I wish
I knew

more about this
subject.

Monday, February 5, 2018

ABANDONED

Snowy vacant
parking lot—black crow's dreadful

pecking
at a dead rat's pelt—very

unself-
consciously.

Friday, February 2, 2018

HAIKU (FIRE)

Deep winter evening—
 
two sticks rubbed together—in 

the kitchen writing.

HELL

Black snail—lurches
under

staggering
weight of his shell,

softest little secrets—needing
the worst protections.

Thursday, February 1, 2018

NUDE

Watercolor
moon—

slight
magic, real magic.

FORCED CONFESSION

Dark times—when you find yourself 
admiring

the abysmal cold—

pale neat vampire,

ruthlessly good
at draining

every last 

cloud from sight

and crushing 

the irksome snowbanks down a little.

COMPLEMENT

Hail thee, itinerant alley-
cat softly licking,
a little matted,

still full
of grace, still fat—

absent
(there are abundant milkwhite
adjectives like that)
but not

agonized—
I see you.

I, too, am
like that—

absent not
agonized

(though this
licking thing, for me
is a coarser feeling exercise),

royally tonguing holy
sores wet with vulgarity,
these repetitious attempts

to recognize—does that look like 
the kind of 
nipple you can drink from?

to figure—was that a 
shrug, or was it
a shiver? 

to decide—do you run 
out to pick some up, or 
get it delivered next-day?

to discover—what's the very best way? 
never to have to rule
out any possibility.

Wednesday, January 31, 2018

3

3 finches—is normally about where
I loose count, on my way
toward another conjectured infinity.

Strange: stability of 2s, so wrecked; each balanced
couple in the juniper branches put to death-
by-addition—of a flawless, self-sufficient 1.

Yet, how much more perfect?—all of the deepest
and most far-flung mysteries of the universe, must have
begun like this: manyness, oddness, indivisibility.

Tuesday, January 30, 2018

V OF GEESE

You go.
I don't. 

You fly. 
I stay

here and watch—
like vague

twin subjects, 
converging upon 

one perfect
vanishing object—or maybe

the reverse: one ideal vision
of winter

now fraught with
two very dissonant consequences.


Monday, January 29, 2018

HAIKU (CAFFEINE)

Mad inks bomb bloodstreams,

keys all flood their locks—each edge

supercompensates.

Friday, January 26, 2018

MUSE

Little black orphan
left-hand mitten, pinned optimistic
to a bald branch—

feed my irresponsible hunger
for more easy selfsame
accidents of the imagination—

foist this reckless pressure
to create, then junk,
then surrender—

turn in that freezing rancid
wind, stimulate
then arrest in me another

unoriginal wonder: where is your
partner? you're so 
pointless without one.

Thursday, January 25, 2018

WATER TOWER EMERITUS

In the wintery distance, almost completely
obscured by the sand-
colored steppes of ivyless brick 

notched impressively, here and there,
with gaudier bullets
of gunsteel and glass—

a dogged shambles of a sentinel, 
the city's last 
tired and cantankerous protector

can yet be glimpsed
grieving 
that old world cataclysm.

Still new this 
sense of 
plain vanity, he hovers evenings

in his cloistered limbo—tearless 
and tilting
just a little bit, as if preparing slowly

to turn and go,
but 

still arrow-
headed, deadpan, pitch 
black—with resolve.

Wednesday, January 24, 2018

SITUATION

I don't understand, but
after all this time spent
talking about it, I can just bet
how the sharp electric wavering
of your own belief in what you're saying
must continue to elude and to shock you;

I can picture, between the clouds
and mud inside you, how it must arc and fork, how it
curves in hot to kiss and hug, then
cuts cold and turns sharp as rude slag,
to stab your throat, dooming your capacity
to even change the subject.

In the midst of the torrent, whenever
the dog turns a little circle, or a distant siren wail
passes, I'm hit with fiercer and hotter
bolts of pure sympathy. I know this: not only
do I hate all of it, but I also desperately want to
hate it all for you.

I wish I could just resent
the force of friction itself—the aftermath
of its intrusion

so plain
in the purple-pink streaks
which decorate your milky neck

when, at last, it swings and curves open
to lay its wrecked head on another
dumb and uncomprehending shoulder.

Tuesday, January 23, 2018

EGALITARIAN

I see your wheels
turning up there—proud hawk, or maybe
eagle, even—I'm not
sure. But I don't
have time to keep looking up, I'm swamped
down here as it is—where I work
as the night janitor
in this jumbled jail of earth and evening trees.

Where there's pipes and paths
that need constant clearing, more
and more cells to clean; where
love's labor needs an awful
lot more work (words are like plungers
and solvent and grease, they
won't tend to things which are already free);
where I only have to think
of unstopping sinks and won't be seduced
or distracted or made
dizzy by your majesty.

The evening sky
is clear, your movements are crisp circles,
my actions are furtive
and dark (and they must be); they don't
involve soaring free or flapping
away or getting too far ahead of myself or
anything like that, I won't
let them, I can't. So sure, go ahead—the kingdom
and the power and the glory
are yours, I'm not interested. I really don't
envy you them
anymore.

Monday, January 22, 2018

HAIKU (UNFAMILIAR MAPS)

Chessboard, kept blank, at

crowded table's center—much

more provocative.

Friday, January 19, 2018

ULTIMATE FANTASY

Hair swept
up and
back in a
dizzying cloud,

breasts newly freed, now
swinging limply

apart overhead
in the mouth-
watering lowlight

that's draping the Egyptian
cotton-sheeted bed,
and—

what happens next,

you'll take your time
honing, 

spend your nights
cleaning, protecting, and sharpening—
for use
as a weapon 

against the frittered
away to flat-
lining remainder of your life.

*

Implausibly—no time
really feels like
the first time
you experienced this.

And the last time 
you do,
from some
bed you don't own,

it'll only make sense to you

that once
you did, and now 
don't, and soon 
won't—but still do
your best

to enjoy lying 
back and 
reenacting the sen-
sation

of picturing yourself 
knowing
just how to
imagine having felt and acted

in that old dream-
purchased bed

from time
to time, when the

mood strikes, or else never
does again.

Thursday, January 18, 2018

BY DEFINITION

a house
is not a home,

just like—a magnificent monument
is still a poor

substitute
for a gravestone,

just like—this little
actual poem

must not be a legitimate thing,
because things

that are real
aren't possible anymore.

Wednesday, January 17, 2018

CRUSHING

Little by little,
the past

keeps accreting,

squeezing
and shrinking—

perfecting the future.

A black speck of sand
blown by

destitute wind—

concludes upon a fallow hill.
Gradually

a mountain is fashioned,

force arrows
pulverizing

dust to a diamond.

Possibilities—
and all eye-

brows—narrow.

Tuesday, January 16, 2018

FOR INSTANCE—

Compared to the pitiless pits of space
that reign after,
knotted

and exhausted
and opaque with the traces—
the silences

weakly abiding
before words are spoken—
are innocent and noble;

perfect riddles
to be
solved only by ordinary time,

virginal vistas: fresh breeze and
seascape panorama,
small and soft pools, clear—but quavering,

alien, uninhabitable—
because
doomed

to last only
in those dampest
delicate folds of our memory.

Monday, January 15, 2018

CHARACTER

A colored jumble of scratches—fixed
fast to my refrigerator
still menaces me daily
with its jagged uncertainties.

A shape without a form, the blue shadow
of no object,
some monochrome poem, a hungry ghost: gnawing
teeth and a brittle
whirlwind—a portrait of the artist
as a dead man.

Still, when I was small
like the hand
that drew this, I bet I
was blue, too.

But back then—solitude
felt huge.
Loneliness flowed cool. Alienation
was new.

Crude moods loomed,
thick and inarticulate,
less rich and complex;

but at least words like alien
only referred
to what I meant.

Friday, January 12, 2018

BAGGY POEM

I know there's a place
where there isn't any war

but there isn't any warmth
and nothing's for dinner. 

Everything is deep blue—
do you really want to go there?

It's so clear; you can see 
it all—which is more 

than a little
like not seeing at all. Once upon

you, it refuses to remember 
what you really wanted—

you don't care
you cannot argue

can't feel your shape-
less tongue to name things

out of the gray—that's where most of
them come from;

into the blue 
is the place they return to.

Thursday, January 11, 2018

SINCE YOU MENTIONED IT,

how many colors could
possible be

out there in this world
of wind—

of it fire and its
feathers,

its seeds
and its flowers—what animation,

what valor
left to be dreamed?

and is it really
the dullards

or their governors
who say

have it your way—
the world is ugly

and the people
still confusing

what's true
with what is beautiful,

still arguing back and
forth until black-

and blue in the
face—which

anyway, are just two more
shades of gray.

Wednesday, January 10, 2018

Monday, January 8, 2018

THRUM NATION

Sure as the imperious sunlit sky
obscures vast astronomical networks,

this waking life is
merely
obfuscating my illimitable dreaming. sure
let's have another loud

mournful celebration—sure, of the death
of the night, of the life of the world we could
still walk around dead in. sure.

I'm humming, I'm joking, I'm not
humming, I'm scrolling, tearing,
                             improvising through pages—people,
years, projects, dollars. millions of
billions of them out there, but who's counting,
just listen—
even the word "billions" sounds like the coins

getting yanked out of some digital
slot machines' mouths
and hitting the ground sure—just
make up your mind or don't I
don't care just let me make up mine...

in the even audible spaces between breathing, I hear
a kind of existential silence
emanating from all these smart devices.
                                          all trash
compacted news, rude
teenage poltergeists of photographs, clever
ticker tape commentary—

it doesn't matter where. sure,
                          everywhere
the white space tingles. the black
pulses thrash and hum.

Gradually—nothing
has begun 
to crease and to fold and compound itself

out of thin air. out of existence. in a minute 
suffocating it’s own capacity to happen.

Friday, January 5, 2018

APPROACHING 0

As winter's cruel late 
afternoon light 
floods each poorly curtained window, 

fills and 
somehow
dims the kitchen—a gradual void 

of value, 
pace, and direction 

leaves you 
with not even your 
own distinct shadow.

Darkness.
This must be how planets come together. 
This is your cue 

to simplify feeling, 
consolidate meaning,
and wrap your core up tight in their patinas.

You have layers now. You're still you—but
encrusted.

Gradually you are moved 
to boil water,

to light imaginary cosmic cigarettes 
straight off the finicky gas burner,

to start practicing 
smaller 
smaller, 
ever-smaller

reorientations toward perfection.

Thursday, January 4, 2018

CAPABILITY

So deep in the grip of it, Bewilderment
suddenly wrenches the corners
of slack Inexperience

into a dopey smiling curl—
a cute little ligature
used to tie nonsequiturs together

which Authority
leaps to misconstrue
as devious, collusive, up to no good—

failing to notice, this self-
righeous Batman—is about to slap Robin
Hood.